Journey of Julene

lets start again

2012-01-30T18:00:00.000+13:00

Ok so I was totally NOT ready. An interesting meeting (all morning) then more meetings after lunch.

I have already made some huge mistakes with the duty roster although I am trying to fix them.

I was totally unprepared for the mass of stuff that needs doing! aahahahahhhhh Do you think the boarders would think it strange if I ran around with my hands in the air screaming? Yeah, me too.

It was nice to see some students (boarders) who have come early. The boys have grown facial hair (yuck but goo on them) and everyone just looks older.

My first official class is not until Thursday 1pm. I think I can handle. Get a grip, Julene.

Bible meeting over. Lots on the "To do" list now.

Found a cool "bathroom pass" for my class - a big bright yellow sunshine. That will make someone think twice before they waste time wandering the halls. (here's hoping)

Every once in a while I take a moment and ask myself "what on earth am I a teacher for?" and most times I stare at myself in the mirror and say "I have NO idea." But as the excitement builds I am ready to face the classroom and begin conversations that lead to growth for me and the students.

But for tonight I am TIRED.

Good night.

Are you ready?

2012-01-29T13:41:00.000+13:00

No. Plain and simple I am not ready for the school year to begin in less than 24 hours. At the same time Grif and Gwen are keen to get back to routine, friends and 2012:) Me, on the other hand, does not feel the least bit prepared to get up in front of a class and teach.

The break has been sweet. Sleeping in, eating whenever I want, spending time with friends and no bells to rule my life. Sadly that is drawing to a close.

On the bright side, I have three new classes with students I may have met but NEVER taught. Everyone is new! I am thrilled about that and looking forward to my first class, learning names and hearing about the holidays.

For the last hour or so I have been totally killing time on Facebook, knowing that is a luxury I will not have come Monday. I have to get up by 7am, choose something other than jeans to wear, and apply lipstick. Whew, its gonna be hard!

As I say good bye to these carefree days with my family I am ever so grateful that I had each moment with the three of them. It has been lovely!

1-2-3!

2012-01-22T13:26:00.000+13:00

A parents "strongest" non-physical warning given to children. The old counting to three.

I am quite experienced in this warning technique as you are given the right to use it when you give birth. Unfortunately with permission to use it there are NO INSTRUCTIONS. What I mean is there are no guidelines like how fast or slow you can count to three; how many TIMES you can use this method within a certain given timeframe; what consequences of breeching the dreaded THREE might me; and what tone of voice is acceptable.

As you can see I have been thinking about this quite some time. You see even in my own household we have varied ideas of how the "1-2-3" works. My husband counts at a reasonable speed to allow the offspring to do what he has requested. I, on the other hand, count quickly but repeatedly when the desired result is not achieved.

When does our right to use this method to hurry our children into motion expire? Is there a certain age by which it becomes invalid? Is 15 too old? Can I use it on other children? I am a teacher, is in inappropriate to use it in the classroom and then blame in on "Oh sorry, I am a mom!"

Such a technique seems so simple on the surface however raises so many unanswered questions that using said technique seems futile.

Now what about the naughty corner?

It seems, that as a parent, we have various choices and unless used sparingly and routinely they will not work.

Does a naughty corner need to be in doors? In the dark? On a chair? Oh so many questions I cannot answer.

Maybe I will just stick to the old and reliable - albeit a wee bit variable - 1-2-3.

Enjoy your parenting.

presents from the US

2012-01-18T17:54:00.000+13:00

Received a package (that had been opened by customs) from my sister, Joy, today. I reckon the reason it was opened was that when you shook it there was an odd sound like tablets:)

Alas there were no illegal drugs in the box but there was Jell-O (3 packs that has quickly turned into 1); cookie mixes, cookie frosting, macaroni and cheese, mashed potatoes in a pack (just add water like amazing American food that it is) and some nifty lovely flavors of rice in a sachet:) I could not be more happy!

Don't be jealous!

One of the fun things about living far from my homeland is that every once in a while my family sends me a package full of yummy treats! The contents never last long but are readily enjoyed:)

Stuff

2012-01-15T19:25:00.000+13:00

Gwen showed me a stack of random things like paper and said "Mum, I have heaps of money!" To which I said, "Cool, let's go to Hawaii." Then she said, "Hawaty? Is that a nice place?" I laughed so hard I cried. I wish we could venture to some wonderful place for a vacation.

As I type 2 weeks loom in front of me before school begins and "the bell" runs my life once again. Grif is keen to see his friends and his new teacher, Mrs Kaiwai. Gwen will be at preschool and probably keep all of teachers on their toes. I am teaching Year 9, 12 and 13 Bible and really excited about what the year holds for me:)

There is a new yoghurt place at the Plaza and we always feel guilty when we don't buy any and support this local business. The kids pile on the gummies and their other favorites. They seem to know the owner personally which is just a wee bit unnerving.

Oh man, Gwen is now crying for no apparent reason so I should really be a loving and tender mother and hold her instead of typing. Have a great week!

I'm 34 and it is a new year

2012-01-08T17:12:00.000+13:00

We have been home for about 6 hours. All bodies are washed, nails clipped and feet scrubbed. The washing is nearly finished and the UNpacking is done. Groceries have been purchased, parents have been skyped with and Gwen is getting her hair combed.

I am tired. Exhausted. Wiped out. Zonked.

We departed our abode at 4am on Boxing day to travel 4 hours north for a wedding. After two days with Rouru's cousin and his wife and three kids we once again bundled into our chariot and drove to Tui Ridge Park to set up our camp for Big Camp/Camp meeting. The weather promptly turned an we got flooded on the Thursday before camp began. We were lucky to be moved to higher ground but out air vent leaked. Wet tent. Wet feet. Mud EVERYWHERE. And that was Friday!

The camp itself was great. The kids LOVED their meetings and making so many friends. As the mother - cooking and washing and trying to stay sane - I eventually reached my limit. I got a lucky break through camp and did our washing and drying! Ah it is the little things. We were also super blessed that dear friends Pam, Phil and Derrylea had come up to camp with Maddison and were staying in Rotorua. New Years Eve we spent in their dry home and ate at a table with cutlery! It is the little things that make a beautiful day.

On the 3rd of Jan I celebrated my 34th birthday. I praise God for another year of life and look forward to what 2012 holds for me:) Again the Hardy's made my day super special with a trip up the Gondola and lunch at the cafe.

But we are now home. And for this I am grateful. I am going to go to bed early and sleep for a long time. The kids can get up and play but I just want to sleep in my own bed!

Three more weeks till I go back to work! I am going to continue making the MOST of every moment.

Christmas day with our adopted family

2011-12-25T20:08:00.000+13:00

Christmas Eve in OUR house:)

2011-12-24T15:19:00.000+13:00

A very Merry Christmas Eve to you and yours from Rouru, Julene, Griffyn and Gwen xx

witty yultide greetings

2011-12-23T16:40:00.000+13:00

I can't even spell.

My kids are listening to a Christmas CD over, and over, and OVER again. I hope they are feeling Christmassssy.

It is hot outside so totally unlike this time of year as I grew up. I got a tad of sunburn yesterday while watching the offspring frollick (sp) in their blow up pool.

I have nothing witty to say so we are going to have take silly Christmas photo's to entertain the masses that flock to my blog.

We are on holiday. I am in remission. Rouru passed his year at UCOL with flying colors. Griffyn and Gwen are not fighting (at the moment).

Since we are leaving on Boxing Day at 4am for a wedding up north, we didn't drag out and decorate the plastic christmas tree this year. We piled the pressy's on the chair and called it the Christmas chair. I crack myself up.

I like Christmas day being on a Sunday. It just feels right.

St Matthew's Christmas controversy

2011-12-15T16:25:00.000+13:00

St Matthews, a church in Wellington, puts up a billboard every Christmas season that brings both ire and talk. These are the this years and last. What do you think?

11 days till Christmas

2011-12-14T08:19:00.000+13:00

I cannot believe how fast this year has gone. With just 11 days till Christmas I am in shock and wondering what I have done for the last 12 months! I can still remember last Christmas so clearly!

We decided not to put up a tree because 1) there is no room in the lounge, 2) we leave on Boxing Day and 3) I really can't be bothered. How important is a tree anyway? My kids don't really care so there ya go!

Griffyn has 5 more days of school (the last 2 of which his father is taking him out for "boy" time). H is moving up to the next class and has a fantastic report for the year:) We are proud parents.

Gwen will be starting preschool on the 25th of Jan and CANNOT wait:) She is so excited to play DAILY with her new friends.

Rouru is having a much deserved rest from studying. If we though last year was hard...2nd year will be more so.

And I am enjoying the BREAK from school bells and routine. I will be teaching Yr 9, 12 and 13 Bible next year as well as taking a Yr 13 Form class every morning. Should be a super year!

Blessings

QT with Griffyn:)

2011-12-08T19:07:00.000+13:00

journey back in time

2011-12-05T16:05:00.000+13:00

The 80's really were amazing:) Come on, who didn't love the big hair and bright colors?

Saturday night my friend, Juliana, celebrated her 30th (dob 1981) with a 80's themed concert. Enjoy the photos. Oh and the night ended with her partner of the last 7 years proposing on bended knee. She said "yes"!!! Go Cliff:) xx

I must admit I was but a wee child in the 80's (being born in 78) so I did not embrace the fashion other than jeans and t-shirts. So this chance to truly live it up was superb!

I even made my offspring "embrace" it (Gwen loved the bling)

Griffyn wore a TMNT hoodie:)

aren't I fetching?

the gloves...and the nails...need I say anything?

Hot ladies: Bex, me, Kirstie and Brooke

hot little ladies Gwen and Madison:)

musings

2011-11-24T11:42:00.000+13:00

Back in my country of birth my fellow American's are cooking up delicious dinners. We'll be celebrating on Saturday night so can't wait. Blessings to all!

Sunday our friends, Nolan and Bex, got hitched! The wedding was lovely and a real testament to these two beautiful people. Can you believe I only got pics of other people? Not any with the bride. shame.

again

2011-11-15T08:54:00.000+13:00

Griffyn is sick again. A very sore throat and cough and temp. Got some cough meds and penadol but home today watching TV.

Sunday Chucky surprised us!

The kids were so super excited to see their big brother. After taking this picture I realised how much Gwen looks like Chux. Ah family!

The highlight of Sunday at the volleyball tournament for Grif was meeting his famous Uncle Johnson from "What Now?"

Grif could not understand how Johnson was at the games but had been on TV just hours before. Ah the wonder of pre-taped shows! Johnson just laughed when I told him.
http://whatnow.tv/2011/?page_id=360

life through the eyes of tag rugby

2011-11-08T10:41:00.000+13:00

Griffyn has started tag rugby on Monday afternoons. It really is quite exciting:) As heaps of under 10's try and figure out what to do running every which way I laugh and cheer and can't wait to get home for dinner.

A few ideas were rolling around in my head - I know I can't even watch my son play a sport without thinking lol! Sport is so much like life. You gear up to win (and in under 7's everyone wins which is NOT life) and then play people you have never met and because it is a sport game you "hate" this newly introduced people.

I don't know it just made me feel odd. There is Griffyn diving for tags of other players and all of a sudden the other team gets really angry. I guess they need to learn that that IS the way the game is played.

Griffyn wouldn't stop talking about the game for the next hour or two. And just like life when there is something exciting, good, or bad we obsess about it even though we can't do anything about it.

Wait for my next installment on life.

nearly 2012

2011-11-01T19:38:00.000+13:00

How is it the 1st of November already? With this month comes the dreaded mustache my husband will sprout for Movember. And also graduation and the leaving of my Year 13's (which leaves me with very mixed emotions). And warmer weather!

I ate my lunch at school with a few other ladies outside on a park bench. How great is that? We were all over dressed but rolled up sleeves, shaded eyes, or ducked for cover with the welcome warmth of impending summer:)

The world has just celebrated halloween - we didn't. NZ isn't too big on this dark holiday so I am pleased that we just ate our dinner and went to bed as usual. Let's be honest, it is fun to dress up, but the whole dark and dare I say evil side of the "holiday" turns my stomach. I have nothing against sugar and candy, mind you, just the whole rejoicing in death and gore that bothers me.

Had a good chat with my Neuro's nurse who set me head at ease and will get some answers for me. Super. I don't like my random MS symptoms but I do like that Rosie will get answers for me fast.

Here's to a new month - make the most of it!

catch 22

2011-10-26T12:08:00.000+13:00

carrying on with the MS theme I thought I would jot down a few of the ironies in this illness.

Physical activity is recommended however I have trouble moving (achy limbs etc)
Drinking heaps of fluid is highly recommended however I have a moody bladder
There is a lot to read about MS but my eyes have trouble focusing
The medication for restless leg syndrome makes you tired (I am already fatigued)

Alas there is no easy answer. However after posting my blog last night I was reminded by numerous friends that I am not alone on this journey. Thank you. I am reminded that everyone has something that makes their journey just a little bit harder. We all also have little treasures that make life worth enjoying!

oh that's right, I almost forgot

2011-10-25T18:28:00.000+13:00

I have MS.

I suppose it would be easy for someone who is not me or living with me to forget that I have a debilitating neurological disease.

It has been just over 2 years and I can say that I have experienced a range or excaserbations and attacks. I truly am grateful that my neuro always has a plan so I know that when I have the next bad attack I may have chemo again. This time instead of being for breast cancer the chemo will be for prostate cancer. I am just glad their is a plan.

So just when I thought my good stretch was really good, my legs started disappearing. Not literally but early this morning I sensed a heaviness. By late afternoon they are like lead. Oh the fun.

My son is sick. My daughter is crying. My husband is trying to comfort us all.

Every day bring new challenges, fears and anxiety.

unlikely

2011-10-24T16:42:00.000+13:00

I am a totally unlikely fan of any sport. But as a wife to a sport nut (who knows more about the NBA then me) and mother to an aspiring athlete (Grif), step mum and Aunty to ballers Chucky and Narada and still waiting to see what Gwen chooses as her sport...I cannot help but be sucked into an all-encompasing world of people chasing balls.

I am not a soccer mom but a cheerleader for those I love doing whatever it is they love. If Griffyn or Gwen decide to play rugby, basketball or netball as a career and if they are good enough to do that then I will cheer the loudest! My only prayer will be that God remains #1 and they choose to minister wherever they are.

fav RWC pics

2011-10-24T16:11:00.000+13:00

I am growing to appreciate - ok, LOVE - Rugby. For my American family and friends here are a few pics that explain this religion in New Zealand.

my thoughts on rugby

2011-10-23T20:31:00.000+13:00

So what does an American have to offer on the world of rugby? Nothing really, but I do like to talk and after watching more rugby during the Rugby World Cup 2011 and 60 minutes tonight there are a few things running through my mind.

Piri Weepu - still lives in his parents converted garage! He's 28, leads the Haka and more. The thing that really amazed me was that his mum gave birth to his older brother when she was just 15! She is still with the same man, father of the boys, a real stellar woman. Not many teenage mum's can chalk up a record.

Aaren Cruden - from our local Palmerston North High school got testicular cancer when he was 19. The cancer spread to his lungs but he is currently in remission and doing an amazing job for the AB's.

Those are only two examples of wonderful men in our All Blacks. So I am a baby when it comes to appreciating the men in black, but these are two great young men (younger than me) who are doing big things.

Cheers to the 9pm kick off...let the making history making begin!

schitzofrenic weather

2011-10-16T09:24:00.000+13:00

ok so I can't spell but really, first it is pouring with rain so I do the most required washing and hang by the heater. But now sun has peaked through so I put the washing on the line. I see a long day ahead of me.

nerves

2011-10-15T07:47:00.000+13:00

Some of your may know that I preach very occasionally. This Sabbath is one of those days. I get to preach to my home church which is extremely nerve wracking and stressful. I will be oh so grateful when lunch rolls around and the sermon is behind me.

The title of my message is "God's touch of grace" and I am talking about three stories in scripture that show God's amazing power. Then I am using Phil 2:15-16 "shine like starts in a crooked and depraved generation" to connect to us as individuals and challenge to be the "star" that shines for God and extends His hands of grace.

Should be ok:)

taking it easy

2011-10-10T19:42:00.000+13:00

this term has been LONG.

Although I went to California in the middle the end of term came as a joyful reminder of spring and eventually the end of the school year!

I would like to have my holiday on a warm sandy beach but I will take my break no matter where!

It is clear God knew we needed a rest and that is why He gave us nights to sleep and Sabbath's to not work. Now make the most of both:)

Restless

2011-10-06T13:42:00.000+13:00

One of the "fun" things about MS is that you never know what is coming next. It is like a present you open up every day. My last attack was just over a year ago when I got double vision which has greatly improved however my right eye is much weaker now.

About two weeks ago I noticed my legs felt restless which made me feel a wee bit restless and tired. After a few jokes about running in my sleep and being unable to sit still I did the dreaded google search for "restless leg" and discovered there is an actual neurological disorder (extremely high for those with MS) called "restless leg syndrome". And guess what? I HAVE IT!!!! and apparently once you have restless legs you have it for life.

I just wish my new disorder made me run really fast or want to run for that matter or ride a bike. But actually it just makes me super tired (I don't know why) and with a general sense of uneasiness.

So I have been to my GP who wants me taking more Omega-3 fish oil and lots of water. Apparently in NZ the drugs I could trial are not good with MS. What a nasty twist.

I am off to have a snooze, hopefully I do not run away in my sleep:)

finally!

2011-10-05T17:51:00.000+13:00

the end of the term:) This has been a long term and I am ever so grateful that I can sleep in and relax for two weeks.

Funny thing Gwen said:
"Can you make that?" while watching a cooking show
"It looks delicious!"

Griffyn had his first tag rugby practice and LOVED it!

sigh

2011-09-30T15:06:00.000+13:00

The sun is brightly shining. Not a cloud in the sky. Blue, green, fresh mowed grass. This is what I love about life. I just exhale and rejoice in all that is around me (even the annoying student) and relish the energy that is good, and healthy, and beautiful.

I love days like this. The weekend is better but a lovely Friday is acceptable.

When Vit D is seeping into my bones I feel revived after a long winter or day. I rejoice in my family, health, friends, and job.

Life is good. And for a moment I forget that I live in a broken and dying world.

A cow is born

2011-09-25T18:03:00.000+13:00

There are a few benefits of living in the country. Today was one. There is a herd of cows in the pasture next to our house and every morning we see that one has had her baby. Tonight while we were eating our dinner I noticed the cow closest to our house was going toilet. Then for some reason I looked closer and realised it was giving birth! The next 30 minutes were amazing, all of us watching with awe. Griffyn kept saying "I don't want to watch anymore" while he couldn't turn away. It was truly wonderful. The cow is cleaning her calf now. All is well/

Gwen and Auntie Joy Joy's tutu

2011-09-20T08:42:00.000+12:00

what if...

2011-09-19T07:23:00.000+12:00

my life is filled with "What if...?" questions. What if something happened or didn't happen. You get the idea. I am sure we all do this from time to time as we weave our way through life. We wonder how things would be different if we had or had NOT done something or if something had just happened differently.

Yesterday something strange happened and my "what if?" became "God intervened" and I realized that so many times what could have been would have been if God did not intervene.

Our family was walking from The Warehouse to our car, Rouru and Griffyn in front and Gwen and I a little way behind. Gwen was on my heals when I glanced up and saw a car directly to our right put on its reverse lights. At this very moment Gwen said "Oh cool!" And bent down to pick up a $2 coin. The car froze and did not reverse for a few minutes. It happened so fast and since nothing happened everything just went on as normal, we got in the car and cruised off. It was not until I was laying awake last night that I was shown just how God had intervened. The car did not see Gwen. There is no way they would have seen her small body bent over picking up a coin.

We never see till later on how something was a miracle. When yesterdays miracle was revealed to me I had a think through different things that have happened in my life and thought I would share what I knew was miracles (I am SURE there are heaps more) in my life.

Car accident as a young child where mom skidded on black ice and NO ONE was hurt
My car accident before I moved to NZ
The circumstance around my moving to NZ
Being diagnosed with MS when I was and no earlier
Flying to USA with no nausea

What about you? I can think of many of my family and friends who have had miracles but I want you to think of them for yourself.

Be blessed and may your eyes be opened to God's daily/momentary involvement in your life.

recovering

2011-09-18T08:20:00.000+12:00

I woke up early Saturday morning SICK AZ and spent the next 12+ hours running to the loo. It really wiped me out. After a good sleep we woke up at 7something and all went for a walk in the refreshing Manawatu sunshine and fresh air. I am heaps better!

Dizzy

2011-09-12T09:44:00.000+12:00

13+ hours, layovers, and waiting in line. I hate traveling. I love getting to where I am destined but I hate leaving and all that follows. This was my first time flying since being diagnosed with MS two years ago. I found my vertigo went haywire. I usually feel a bit dizzy on a good day, however after my airplane rides and jet lag I felt like:

I slept and generally rested for the last 4 days and something just clicked on Sunday and I felt "normal" again. I don't think I will fly any time soon.

California dreaming

2011-09-08T12:32:00.000+12:00

I have landed safe and sound in Palmerston North. The closer I got I started feeling giddy and super excited! I couldn't wait to give Rouru and the kids their goodies and just hug them all:)

This trip was marvelous. I missed my kids but there is a lot I couldn't do if they had come. Melissa, me, Joy, Malora and my parents (below) had brunch at an amazing little place the Thursday before the big event. How wonderful to reconnect with some cousins and my sis!

This picture was taken at Joy's rehearsal dinner at the "Elephant Bar". She is squishing me LOL

The Sunday before I headed home we had a brunch for my Grandpa Vic's 93rd birthday. What a treat - pictured here with Uncle Jerry, Grandpa, Grandma, Aunty Beth, mom and dad. Priceless.

My holiday was made complete with a day spent with my bestest ever friend, Michelle:) Here we are at Long Beach. I even soaked my feet in the water to say I went to the CA beach:)

Now I am home and glad to be. The NZ adventure continues:)

American Adventures - continued

2011-08-29T10:40:00.000+12:00

Off to Thrift Town for 2 hours. Who can pass up two pairs of jeans for $3.99??? I really will need a bag boy. Maybe Johnny is free hee hee

I am sleeping in the single bed because I miss the bed hog (yes, you, Rouru). This way I have a little space that I don't have to share.

Sabbath I spent sleeping and lounging in the sun and listening to some guy drumming. My parents got home from their tiki tour to AZ and we stayed up too late watching http://www.iamsecond.com/ (I am Second) and for the first time in my life I got to show dad something on a computer he did not know!!! HOw to download from youtube!

Tomorrow I am off to Sacramento Adventist Academy to see how they do things. All I know is that their staff worship/meeting is at 730am! YIKES if LAC did that it would be just Bruce!

Some images for your enjoyment:

an apple from NZ

giant marshmallows for roasting (yummmm)

dad's chrysler sitting outside their garage

American adventur - Part 1

2011-08-27T11:58:00.000+12:00

Mom and I arrived into San Fran around 11am. Dad was there to meet us and on the way home we enjoyed El Torito's mexican food. JUST WHAT I NEEDED!

I actually slept for 6 hours on the plane and don't feel "dead" although I am having a Julene weekend as my parents had to go to AZ for work. I can do whatever I want!

Stay tuned for any real adventues:)

"child free"

2011-08-25T18:52:00.000+12:00

My mother and sister-in-law came this afternoon to pick up my two cherubs. So..Rouru, my mum and I are cleaning the house and and and well that is just it. There is really an empty space when you are so used to bathing, dressing etc the young ones each night.

It does not take long to appreciate the gift of children. We chose to have these and love every minute with them. The time away is also nice, however the 12 days without Rouru or Griffyn or Gwen will be heart wrenching. The positive? I know I will see them again!

I am glad to be a mother/wife and all that comes in that package!
I am grateful for being able to go to Joy's wedding.
I am already looking forward to being a family once again xx

PNACS rocks

2011-08-21T07:51:00.000+12:00

Griffyn's school had its bi-annual International Food Fair and Concert last night. It was AWESOME!!!!

beauty pagaents for littlies...my thoughts

2011-08-17T14:23:00.000+12:00

So the US is infiltrating New Zealand with mini beauty queens. Apparently things got messy as mothers boycotted the event and picketed those who chose to take their "beauties" to the show.

I think Gwen is a stunner! She has lovely olive skin, kinky curly hair, natural sense of humour and general amazing talent from her mixed heritage. BUT...would I ever enter her into a beauty show? I think not. I know she will already have so many issues to deal with in this world. People are so aware of beauty, shape etc from a young age, why would I enhance that by putting her on show?

I asked Rouru if he would drive Gwen and I to Wellington to march against the beauty things for little kids but he said no, I need to find a more agreeable driver!

I am not opposed to people putting their daughters through such a circus, however I would encourage them to think twice about the life-long impact of being a "princess" would be.

I think she is beautiful! She would win any contest hands down. However I would rather her improve her talents and kindly spirit instead.

SNOW in Palmerston North

2011-08-15T17:04:00.000+12:00

apparently this is a once in 50 year event so the kids and I (and everyone else) are making the most of it. It gets super cold here but never snows...now we get what we have wanted for so long!

celebrate life

2011-08-14T09:37:00.000+12:00

2 years ago...

I couldn't walk without support
I got stuck in the bathtub because I had lost mobility
Was taking Chemo
Was a wee bit delusional
My hair had pink streaks and was falling out
I didn't think I would walk again
Had lost 10 kg in 3 weeks
Could only lie on my right side
Was deciding who Rouru would marry when I was gone
Had to drink from a sippy cup
I had to ask people to cut my food

NOW...
Have blonde streaks
Can walk - and sometimes run - unsupported
Can drink from a cup :)
Can dress myself (even wearing pants with buttons)
I can feed myself - even cutting my food
I can pick up my kids
Just took a bath and got out by myself
Am headed to California for my sisters wedding
Am planning on growing old with Rouru Kapao!!!!!

Here's to life :)

the little things

2011-08-07T16:17:00.000+12:00

While doing my thing today I began contemplating the little things of my life. I thought them blog worthy:)

Nits (or kutus as we call them) - I cannot resist (when there is good light) peering at Griffyn's head and looking for eggs!
Yoghurt - I realise that I have not bought yoghurt this year. Too expensive! So a lovely treat!
Eyesight - ok so my right eye is totally blurred. No glasses will help. Just a downside of MS.
Turtles - Sammy is little and dumb. He is in the tub and keeps trying to climb out. Slow learner...I just hear his nails sliding and his shell hitting the bottom every 39 seconds.
paycheck - yes I put this in the "little" category because although I am most grateful for work and income it is TOO SMALL. The "in" is smaller then the "out".
Weekends - too little, too small, too far between
3 and 6 year olds:) Good things come in small packages! Thank goodness they start small!
The tiny pill I take every day: Prozac! hahahha My friend Nikki calls it my "happy pill"!

Now off to eat tea...not such a small thing:)

extraordinary fun in the pipeline

2011-08-06T15:35:00.001+12:00

So I am on countdown for my mom's arrival (10 days to be exact) in NZ and then our departure to SFO (20 days to be precise). Upon reaching the country of my birth I will:

* Fly to Pheonix with my parents for a Maranatha Sabbath
* Visit Sacramento Adventist Academy and meet the Bible teacher
* Do a wee bit of shopping :)
* Travel to So Cal
* Party hard with family for my sisters auspicious day!!!!!
* Spend at least 24 hours with my dear friend Michelle
* Fly home

* sleep

My kids are amped to be going to Nana Oi and Papa Kaps' house in Hastings so their dad, the love of my life, Rouru, can focus on his studies.

The next few weeks will be exciting and the trip will fly by I am sure. I am so looking forward to the fun and sun! My current daily wardrobe always contains thermals, a hoody, scarf and a jacket. In California...ahhh...I can only imagine that I will not have so many layers!

just have to say...

2011-07-21T09:18:00.000+12:00

I love going to bed and getting up when I want to!
I love not hearing the school bell.
I love leaving the dishes...ok I always do that LOL

I have had my hair don, painted my nails, made some lovely food (then eaten it) and played outside when I was not in danger of frostbite. But today is a coOOOOLD day with a grey overcast sky. I think we will need to venture beyond our front door to someplace warm and entertaining. I can think of a few destinations (if we had $$$).

Next week we are going to trek to Hawkes Bay to chill (literally) with Nana and Papa Kaps. I look forward to the family time.

Now I am off to ...no I don't have anything to do...maybe I could...nah, I'll go Facebook!

hair

2011-07-17T17:01:00.000+12:00

really bothers me.

I am attempting to grow it so I can have a proper cut and style before Joy's big day in Sept. But right now it is too short to do anything and to long to look cute.

Tomorrow I am booked in for a cut and color at a new place and I am hoping she can work magic:) otherwise I will spend the rest of my life feeling like:

Holidays...

2011-07-15T14:02:00.003+12:00

what a beautiful thing! I waited 11 weeks to be able to sleep past 7am without rushing to my place of work. I love my students but this is a well-needed break from the bell:) Yeah for school holidays!!!!

"Word" for 10.7.11

2011-07-10T08:59:00.000+12:00

Every now and again I read something that I want to share.

"Stop and appreciate the fact that you're making it through difficulties - you're getting up each morning and putting one foot in front of the other and doing what you have to do."

Yup, I can appreciate that.

Thank you Lord for waking me up and giving me life today!

Griffyn's new bed

2011-07-07T19:17:00.005+12:00

We are now the proud owners of a double bunk bed...so if you ever want to visit there is a bed for you:)

Date with Gwen

2011-07-01T06:49:00.000+12:00

we were blessed with tickets to the Midwinter Christmas dinner. We dressed up in our best outfits, did our nails and were dropped off in our Limo (van lol). We had a lovely night out! I wore a bridesmaid dress from a few years ago and Gwen wore her Mexican dress from Costco chosen by Papa D! It was cold, hence the footwear:)

Dinosaurs among us

2011-06-28T16:07:00.000+12:00

Grif has an obsession and fascination with DINOSAURS.

This is being fueled by my parents and me:) This was an awesome T Rex 3D puzzle...I don't know who had more fun LOL

To speak as a child

2011-06-28T10:31:00.000+12:00

Our church celebrated holy communion this past week. When I was growing up one could not participate unless you were baptised; as a parent (now) I believe it is important for even little children to take part understanding only what they can at that stage.

As we took the grape juice I quietly said to Gwen "This represents Jesus' blood. He shed it for us when H died. This is how much He loves us."

Gwen grabbed my arm and nestled into my neck, "Mummy I don't want Jesus to die." She was close to tears,

"Gwen, He did die. He loves you. He is alive now in Heaven and will come take us away." It sounded so complex as I tried to assure Gwen.

But how beautiful. At 3 years of age, Gwen could grasp that her actions (and those of others) put Jesus on that cross.

Phone Calls

2011-06-22T09:14:00.000+12:00

I can totally relate...

"If I'm calling a friend, family member or pretty much anyone else who doesn't pay me, my kids will be perfect angels. Playing quietly with each other without turning the house into a nuclear disaster zone or anyone dying. But heaven forbid I should be on the phone with a client. Suddenly, the same people who ignore pretty much everything I say and prefer their father/grandmother/aunt/stranger-at-the-grocery-store to me, cannot live without me for two seconds and cry hysterically, clinging to my legs as though I'm abandoning them in the Sahara with no food or water."

read more:

(from http://www.rantsfrommommyland.com/)

I am the teacher

2011-06-15T13:16:00.000+12:00

and your success is up to YOU, not me.

Contrary to popular belief, a teacher can only encourage success not achieve success for you. As my seniors rush to complete an assignment they have had 5, yes FIVE, weeks to do they frantically do...NOTHING! I caught one on facebook, several looking at the news (although on worthwhile sites and stories it will not help on their assignment), the vast majority talking about worthless gossip and a few staring at the computer screen with a vacant and lost look.

So why am I blogging about this? Because they somehow think I will hold their hand or help them pass!!! And shock of SHOCKS they get mad at ME when they fail! I am LAUGHING OUT LOUD as I type this. Not at their (sad) delusion but at the fact that students will always be the same! Procrastinate, stress, procrastinate, stress...blah blah blah...

With 24 hours to deadline (and a heartless teacher - that's me - who wont accept late work) this was my class:

Not on task but desperately trying to look like it! I guess they are learning the skill of deception!

I am the teacher! Get to work! And don't come crying to me when you fail, don't graduate or your parents kick you out. Ok, you can come to me but I may not be the most understanding person:)

Have I said this before?

2011-06-14T10:31:00.000+12:00

There is no doubt that the end is coming. What are we so afraid of? I suppose pain, for us or our loved ones, is no something we look forward to. But to be honest there is no getting around this world finally calling it quits.

Recent "aftershocks" or 6.0 earthquakes rocked Christchurch and rattled nerves in the South Island. Apart from feeling for the residence, I was perplexed with the question "How much more can we take?" from so many people. I have no intention of sounding heartless but a few earthquakes is nothing compared with what is coming (see Matthew 24, Revelation 14, 22...)

As I lay awake last night considering recent events I had an overwhelming urgency in my heart. Could I handle what was most certainly headed my/our way? And I didn't think I would. If I cannot handle the earth shaking then the return of God Almighty will be a bit much.

Unlike the movie

there is no "fixing" this problem. The earth will shake, thy sky will fall, only our Faith in God will prevail.

I hate repeating myself but this is all too much...have I said this before?

Family date night

2011-06-11T19:58:00.000+12:00

What do you do if you have little money to spend as a family?

1. Buy "mocktail" ingredients
2. Dress up (in pajamas)
3. Pop some popcorn
4. Watch a DVD from our collection

Saturday night with little $ and good humor = a great night!

for your enjoyment:)

2011-06-09T17:39:00.000+12:00

I struggle to maintain 24/7 humour (ok I never do) but I LOVE stumbling across someone else who is a total comedian!

Enjoy:

http://waveatthebus.blogspot.com/

lesson on money

2011-06-05T15:02:00.000+12:00

Grif and Gwen have been saving their coins and thought today was a good day to SPEND them! Grif had $6 and Gwen $4 so off to the $2 Shop we went.

They each took AGES choosing - then putting back - various purchases finally deciding on stickers, a Tiki keychain, a sparkly blue hat and an angel halo.

Gripping their treasures we headed down the street to get fluffies and a coffee for their driver:)

As we sat sipping with delight, Grif piped up and said, "Mum, I'm sad." "Why?" I asked. "Because now my money is gone."

Oh a hard lesson to learn...and one I know SO well,

MS thus far

2011-06-03T18:33:00.001+12:00

One year ago I woke up with a numb and useless right hand (http://www.mult-sclerosis.org/paresis.html) and after that it was August that I experienced major vision issues (http://www.mult-sclerosis.org/diplopia.html).

Along the way I have had various symptoms that make life a bit miserable - mostly fatigue and depression - but I am coming up to one year attack free! As this is a degenerative disease I am ALWAYS grateful with a day with no attacks but constantly aware that the disease looms over me and my existence.

Thanks to all those who love and support me through this journey...your assistance never goes unnoticed:)

Be blessed!

What can we learn?

2011-06-01T18:45:00.001+12:00

Is there any connection between Osama Bin Laden, Ratko Mladic, Gadaffi and the Tienanaman Square Massacre?

Not directly. But these individuals/incidents were launched out of the pit of human depravity causing despair and utter pain.

This week I am taking 3-5 minute worships at school about forgiveness. Are the above evil? Yes. Do the deserve punishment? Yes. Does God love them? Yes, hugely.

We can learn so much from the numerous (and diverse) injustices committed...the importance of freedom, education, democracy and leadership rather than dictatorship. These names, images and places are molded into my existence having been born in 1978. As I shared the Ratko worship this morning, one 13 year old boy asked, "Did God love Hitler?" My response was, "YES but He detested what Hitler did. Would God have forgiven Hitler? Yes!"

The verses I am using are:

Proverbs 24:17

¹⁷ Do not gloat when your enemy falls;
when they stumble, do not let your heart rejoice.

Matthew 6:14

¹⁴ For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.

Psalm 23:5

⁵ You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

1 Corinthians 15:26

²⁶ The last enemy to be destroyed is death.

Take a moment to learn about or remind yourself of these events/people:

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-13256676

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ratko_Mladić

http://news.xinhuanet.com/english2010/world/2011-06/01/c_13904310.htm

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2011/may/31/tiananmen-square-china-pay-off

So if I buy into the outrageous belief that Jesus Christ died for me, Ratko, Osama and every other person upon this planet it will either shake my world and faith or convince me that God is a God so unfathomable, so Big, so Loving and so awesome that I will lay on my face and honour The King.

Oh the heavy burden

2011-05-29T19:59:00.000+12:00

of being a mother.

I held grandiose plans for child rearing long before I had offspring. I was aware that my own little people would prove difficult (having my own genes and all). However I was never fully clued into the fact that they would embarrass, madden, overjoy, and confound me so extremely.

So where does this all come from? Gwen ran away from me on Friday so I had to "race" after her down the hall at school and vow to NEVER let her out of my sight (and was loaned a child "leash" *SCORE*); Griffyn walked home on his own and upon discovering me gone, he crawled through Gwen's window leaving mud prints; then at church...the list is endless.

I found myself scheming about a new "reward chart" with Rouru. How would we encourage positive behaviour? Now that is a loaded question. I envision my children not only becoming good citizens but able to critically think about others, big questions and the world around them. I pray they will develop a healthy conscience and deep empathy for others. I spend quality time with each of them daily.

I..I..I need to leave this to God.

I don't think my children are terrible (don't get me wrong) but they have been known to jump on the sofa when company is around (sorry Nikki), ask for money (sorry Nana), run in and out of church (sorry PNCSDA church), and much more.

It became apparent that I could only guide - and not force - perfection and improvement (what a letdown). So I had a ball today shopping for new pants for me with Grif close by my side and Gwen on her leash, grocery shopping and then at Te Manawa for 2 hours. At the end of the day I can say it was rewarding!

My offspring and I "planking" outside Te Manawa.

The end IS coming

2011-05-21T21:31:00.001+12:00

I know...2 blogs in 1 day. I have a lot to say:)

So this whole "end of the world" news is getting to me. I have perused various articles and blogs with only two conclusions: the fear-monger Christians give us other Christians a very bad name AND the end is eminent.

Ok so I am a Bible teacher which means on a daily basis I have the honour of talking to young people about God and encouraging them to have a real and personal relationship with Him. This news that yet another person was predicting the rapture/end of the world actually made me giggle and ridicule his "promises". I have personally made jokes at the expense of people who point to a time for Christ's return. One only needs to open to Matthew 24 to discover we will not know the "day or time" of His return. But joking aside, the reality is that people do believe this.

But what we do know is that He WILL return. I mean let's be honest, this earth is no heaven...far from it. I suffer from MS and that is no fun. No one who exists in our world can truly claim that this world is a great place (mind you it is the only place we know and have nothing to compare it to). I don't know what bothers me more: so-called Christians claiming the end was today OR the reality that many don't care.

Alas, I am going to bed with few answers other then the fact that I will have another day to live and contemplate reality.

Until tomorrow...

84 Walkers Road ramblings

2011-05-21T16:43:00.000+12:00

* So the end of the world is hear...or so some whack job in America says. The Bible says that too but also makes it very clear that we know not the day or the hour. Um...I am going to watch "Despicable Me" and let you all know how we fair here in NZ.

* We treated the whole family for worms and head lice today. What a bonding experience. Treat one treat all. (thanks little people in my life)

* There is a crack in the ceiling of my bathroom...should I be worried?

* We keep accumulating children who sit with us at church. Gwen and Grif's friends would rather sit with us! It is so sweet to have the boys argue about who gets to sit beside Griffyn's mum LOL

* It is only the end of week 3 and I am in terrible need of another holiday. 11 week term? You got to be kidding!

* There has only been one suitable day in the last 5 to hang dry my clothes...this is going to be an expensive winter.

* 3 months till I go to Cali for my sisters wedding:) Better think of cool gifts!

* I have a new support worker...sad to say goodbye to Angie.

* Getting a 1 hour massage Thursday (thanks to my mom)!

* Went on a date with Gwen on Friday. Had lunch at "The Coffee Club" but did not consume any caffeine:) They were so efficient that when we went to the toilet our table was cleaned! They had to make another toasted sandwich for Gwen (boo)

* Griffyn looks forward to Thursday as their are "Ripper Rugby" competitions at school. How the school yard games have changed.

* Said goodbye to our Samoan church family today. They are moving to a new venue and ministry. They will be missed.

* Hating my Betaferon injections. They are making sore welts that last about a week. Not fun.

* My big son, Chucky, turned 22 on Thursday. That makes me feel old!

* We have a new fence and gate on our property...in the process a mud bath was made. So we went to buy new gumboots.

* I can't put on fingernail polish without Gwen asking for some...better stick to neutral colours!

* Is there a magic potion to get hair to grow fast? I am in need of help to pass the awkward stage:)

* My kids never nap. Never. How am I to get through the day?

* Really stoked to have one of my students and his family come to church for the 2nd week in a row!

* And now the sun is going down. I am sitting in bed, typing and listening to Rouru snoring next to me and the kids in Gwen's room. Life is good. I am blessed!

wasting water

2011-05-16T18:19:00.000+12:00

Gwen likes showers.

This is a new thing. You see she used to HATE water getting in her eye but in the move she decided to like showers rather than baths.

She just stands there and wastes the water. But I am grateful she is clean:)

Dear Mom,

2011-05-05T16:18:00.000+12:00

You have always stood by my side (even when I didn't want you to).
You consistently reminded me that you loved me (even when I did things that made you feel otherwise).
You are an awesome grandmother (and remind me that your ONLY grandkids live in NZ).
You have shown me that marriage is worth it (and requires work).
You make me want to be a better mother (because of your great demostration).
Happy Mothers Day (a few days early).

Love,
Julene

An enemies demise

2011-05-04T21:24:00.000+12:00

Mixed emotions flooded my mind as I watched, read, and listened to a myriad of responses to the news that Osama bin Laden had been killed. Somewhere I know people grieved for this man - madman or not. In many Western locations, celebrations erupted. My mind was paralyzed. I could not make sense of my faith and the response to an enemies demise.

Proverbs 24:17 reads "Do not gloat when your enemy falls; when he stumbles, do not let your heart rejoice." I knew that this man had received "justice" in some way, however I had to question one headline reading "Gets what is coming to him." Isn't death coming to all of us? Isn't the end for us all earthly death?

So Osama is dead. What does that mean for me? Is he my enemy? Or does he represent the millions of people who hate me because of my faith and the place of my birth?

I cannot help but be filled with sadness, that Osama - and his allies - chose not to accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour. Instead they served His enemy in their war. This battle, spoken of so often in Scripture, has come yet one step closer.

I found solace in the 1 Cor 15. The chapter focuses on the hope of a risen Saviour. Verse 26 reads, "The last enemy to be destroyed is death." Thank goodness that an end to this battle and madness is promised.

Do I believe in justice? Most certainly.
Do I celebrate death? Never.

I believe each individual must face the consequences of their actions/choices when they face the Father. That means me, Osama and the billions of others who have (and will) exists on this planet will face the same jury/Judge.

Dear Diary,

2011-05-02T09:15:00.000+12:00

Rouru's alarm went off at the unacceptable time of 530am this morning. I couldn't sleep after that (and Gwen's joining me in bed) so got up to dye my hair for the new term.

It is cool outside and windy but luckily no rain (yet).

I felt like I had so much to do today: lunches, uniform, breakfast...chaos. Getting back into the routine is always hard.

Please be nice to me today.

Thanks.

Royal what?

2011-04-29T16:45:00.000+12:00

Wedding, that is. I was 2 years old when Diana got married so I wish to celebrate this event by watching it live and drinking English Tea!

On another note, why is this getting so much attention while the Lybian disaster barely makes the front news anymore. And thousands of people still die of preventable diseases AND hunger. But hey, a royal is getting hitched in a country that my forefathers (and mothers) LEFT, boarded the Mayflower and started a fresh. Um, should this chaos be digitally live streaming for 24+ hours around the globe?

I am undecided.

And I want to see Kate's dress. How can I be so shallow?

Ah...Easter weekend...

2011-04-22T20:08:00.000+12:00

A holiday within a holiday! So we have arrived at the middle weekend of the two-week term break and it is Easter weekend! To top that chocolate coated revelrie off, it is ANZAC day on Monday AND my friend Lindsay's birthday! Whew...can I handle all the sugar and meals? Yes I can:)

Sabbath 1pm - International Lunch
Sunday 830am - Easter egg hunt for Griff, Gwen, Gus and Jesse
Sunday 1130am - Lunch with Lois and Graham
Monday 5am - dawn service for ANZAC day
Monday 10am - brunch for birthday etc

I am hungry just planning my weekend!

me with my cherubs at our "new" back door!

Gwen's picture of me! Don't laugh, I think it is stunning!

We have moved

2011-04-21T07:32:00.002+12:00

And I never want to move again! It took about 3 weeks to move up the road to a smaller abode, but I love it! It is cozy and I can see and hear everyone from the kitchen!

Gwen's playhouse has new paint: "Peenk and perple" as she says! LOL

It is good to be moved but I have to go back to the other house and clean the oven and wash the windows. Bummer.

Mates:)

2011-04-07T14:53:00.000+12:00

Gwen goes to Jesse's house daily. They are great friends! Today Jesse came home for popcorn and "Diego" with Gwen before their big bro's came home from school.

It's raining again...

2011-04-07T13:33:00.000+12:00

Autumn has officially settled into the Manawatu. We experienced a splendid, and long, summer. But the last few nights came with howling wind and pelting rain. I refuse to "retire" my flip-flops though, so although I have a heavy coat on and numerous layers underneath, my summer-painted toenails still peak through black flip-flops and mud-stained feet.

The rain signals the end of a season and a move for us. In just over one week my family and I will transport the last of our belongings up the road to the original house I lived in 8 years ago. Funny how these things happen.

So it is raining. But I soaked up all the sun I could over the summer and hope it lingers through the following months.

Teenagers...

2011-04-01T20:29:00.000+13:00

smell!

Well ok not that bad...but the boys cabin really could be smelled from quite a distance. AND teenage girls squeal and scream for no apparent reason whatsoever. Oh and I am glad to be home from Year 13 camp although I really did love it!

I had two highlights:
a teacher only coffee machine that made mean mochachino's
AND
meeting the Crunella Sharks (don't be hatin')

Although I did NOT go (due to nausea and balance issues) the students completed the Tongoriro Crossing in 7 hours and less on the Wednesday. The picture explains why I was slightly jealous:

So I am home with my hubby and my offspring glad for life and ability to go on camps!

Sharing is caring

2011-03-24T17:00:00.000+13:00

But not when it is sharing germs! I woke up really Wednesday morning with my dear husband retching… then I woke to my son, the lovely firstborn, retching. As dawn broke that morning I headed to work leaving three of my family home sick.

As of Wednesday progressed I felt more nauseous eventually finding a school toilet to deposit whatever was in my stomach then having time to sleep. As I slept my daughter got the bug.

Sharing is caring! We each took about 24 hours to recover however the kids and myself stayed home today just to rest to and clean the house. Although I encourage my children to share this is something I'll encourage them to keep to themselves :-)

Japan 1994

2011-03-15T19:54:00.000+13:00

My grandparents lived in Japan for a few years and my mother and I had the privilege of visiting them. What an amazing experience! They still have a TV they got there. Everything is in Japanese but you can figure out the volume and channels.

My scrapbook page:)

This lovely lady was a friend of my grandmother. She wanted to dress my mother and I in Kimono's. I look like a GIANT!

This is my beautiful grandma, Arlene, who "owns" part of my name:)

I would love to send Rouru to Japan, I am sure he is related to a Samurai way back somewhere! One day...or else we will all hang out on the New Earth!

Awesome moment

2011-03-09T18:56:00.001+13:00

Today our school held its annual athletics day. It is a day full of rotations including the high jump, discus, javelin and the 1500 m. I watched in amusement as some individuals tried to look cool while doing something very un-sexy like the triple jump, and I laughed under my breath when I saw the too cool for school boys walking aimlessly instead of running for any of the running-required events.

The end of the day drew near which included some sprint activities. I had the job of being one of the time keepers and I watched the students line up in age order for their event. An incredible, awesome moment happened without me even realizing. We have a new student, a Down's syndrome boy. He is keen to participate in everything. He always has an amazing smile and is ready to give a hug! He had chosen to be a part of this particular sprint. You can probably imagine he did not make it in the front however nobody noticed who came first. There he was, running far behind his more able-bodied peers, arms flailing high and wide, feet pointing in the wrong direction he was heading, and a smile beaming across his face. Everyone, and I do mean everyone even in the too cool for school boys, cheered his name and stood to their feet. As he stumbled over the finish line he raised his hands and a victors stance as the "crowd" erupted into cheering and shouting.

My throat tightened and I felt tears spring to my eyes. What an awesome moment!

The moment was over but I will never forget.

60 seconds

2011-03-08T10:41:00.000+13:00

to moan.

*I hate this cold weather. I am wearing a sweater and TWO jumpers. Not good for the skinny look.
*I drank two cups of coffee and now have the jitters. I never learn.
*My roof is leaking and getting a repairman is proving hard.
*Everything that I need costs more money than I have.
*I keep having to buy basics like bread, peanut butter and jam. Why can't we buy then just once?
*Tomorrow is athletics day and it is way too cold to be outside. I think I will have a sick day.
*Amazing Race does not have any "love to hate" participants. They are all really awesome people. Waste of time to watch!
*Gwen just put permanent marker on her "My Little Pony". She will probably have a tattoo before she is 20.
*Griffyn would rather watch TV then read.
*Did I mention it was cold?

Ok, my 60 seconds is up.

Now I WILL have a good day:)

exhale

2011-03-03T16:27:00.002+13:00

the party is over! Gwen had a blast, we danced, ate, and laughed! 365 days to go for the next one!

My baby girl is THREE

2011-03-02T00:15:00.000+13:00

Farm visit

2011-02-26T15:25:00.000+13:00

Our little Sabbath School class went to a friend's farm for a picnic and to run after the animals. Now that I have downloaded the pictures there are NONE of animals...oh except for Bobby the pony who was trying to eat Sean and Griffyn's lunch. Not everyone went - our SS is bigger LOL - but this was a start fir socials for this age group.

Birthday #1 over...whew...

2011-02-24T17:31:00.000+13:00

The making of a 6 year old birthday party!

Griffyn is 6

2011-02-22T00:00:00.001+13:00

where did the time go?

Early morning photo shoot

2011-02-19T07:24:00.000+13:00

with my #1 girl!

Oh to be me

2011-02-18T21:16:00.000+13:00

my friend told me that I have almost 1000 friends on Facebook. I should feel special right? When I was 15 this would have made me unstoppable. Now it just makes me feel tired. Oh to be me.

I love being a teacher but today I had two relief periods that reminded me why I love my own two classes! Sometimes I just feel mean:) Oh to be me.

I need to go to sleep. But Gwen keeps getting up to tell me something so more than an hour after she went to bed we are now both up and awake.

Oh to be me.

Happy Valentines Day!

2011-02-14T10:34:00.002+13:00

Monarch caccoon...now we just wait.

Don't you ever...

2011-02-11T18:17:00.000+13:00

*want to sleep all day?
*not have to make tea? Or lunches?
*have to wear a swimsuit?
*not want to go to work? Or listen? Or obey?

Why is life so hard? I mean I just want to sleep but G1 and G2 are in the bath splashing and I will need to go get them ready for bed then clean the flood. Ok, maybe it isn't that hard, just tiring. I am exhausted. Maybe this is what people call "fatigue". Well people, I have it and it is bad! I did have 2 late nights in one week...went for a walk...been in the sun for extended periods of time...and not drunk enough water.

So where do I get a stand-in "mom" so I can have a break?

off to school he goes...

2011-02-07T14:01:00.000+13:00

First day of his SECOND year at school.

When I asked "how did he go?" Rouru said, "he just ran off". So that says Griffyn was excited for school!

How's your MS?

2011-01-31T20:03:00.000+13:00

So how is your multiple sclerosis?

At this time of the year, with so many new beginnings, I feel compelled to reflect on the journey of my MS. Over the last 12 months I have attempted to become gluten-free, vegan and overall a much healthier person. Although I am not 100% GF I have incorporated a more healthy lifestyle which includes being completely vegetarian and getting all the sleep I need. And of course when it is sunny out I do try and get my vitamin D! So far I find my Betaferon interjections are going ok.

My eyes–especially my right eye–had a relapse so I'm experiencing weakness and slight distortion in my right eye. It could be worse tho, the double vision was a bit too much! So I'm happy now to see only what is in front of me even if it is slightly out of focus.

I'm very grateful that my relapses have not been terribly traumatizing. I have been able to work, walk, take care of my children and all the other things that make me who I am. I have no idea what the next 12 months old for me and my illness power I am assured that I do not walk this journey alone. I am constantly reminded of the wonderful friends and family I have who surround me and support me when I struggle, stumble and fall.

Multiple sclerosis is not an easy journey… it is definitely not one I would've chosen for myself less than my worst enemy. However I am leaning how to do tend on other people–whether they like it or not–and to enjoy the small things in life. It is not that I have changed so much but I am learning to appreciate everything as it comes my way. I am thankful for being able to put Gwendolyn to sleep. I'm grateful for a job, even if it is only part-time. I am ever so grateful for people who love me even when I stuff up. I am at peace that God loves me just the way I am, even as I change with my illness.

Deep...

2011-01-29T20:42:00.000+13:00

It is that time of year, once again, but I find myself thinking deeply about the rest of the year. I have had a marvelous, relax saying holiday time with my family however the reality is I go back to school on Monday. The first two days of teacher only–time to plan, print, photocopy, prep and just catch up with my colleagues– and then it is on. One of my colleagues, another Bible teacher, hurt his hands terribly and is off teaching for one month. This means I will take his two junior classes… I am grateful that my health isn't such a place that I can actually do this and look forward to it.

There are so many things I would like to accomplish this year with my new classes. Both my senior classes I do not know very well. Although I have taught them as a reliever I have not had the privilege of being their teacher. I'm always grateful for the opportunity to meet new students and connect with them in the class setting. It makes me think deeply about what I want them to go away with at the end of the year or whenever it is that they leave.

So as the Summer holiday draws to a close and I find myself putting "grown up clothes" on again I am eager for this new challenge. I'm also very grateful–not a moment goes by that I do not acknowledge where I am today–and I'm well and able to work.

To all my family and friends have a wonderful year and best wishes!

Rolling in the new year

2011-01-29T20:18:00.000+13:00

We have another new addition to our family: Rolly. Friends of ours, Lex and Carl, are returning to their homeland–Australia–and are leaving with us their Budgie.

Griffyn and Gwen have been very wary but today I offered (bribed) them $1 to let Rolly said on the shoulder. After she had had a turn on all of us, she flew to her cage… I believe she's traumatized for life. Note Rouru's eye patch, he wanted to be a pirate hahahaha I guess he really wants to be Johnny Depp, he'd be pretty lucky and so would I.

Girls' weekend

2011-01-23T19:47:00.000+13:00

Rouru and Grif went to Hastings to help Nana Oi and Papa Kaps shift houses, leaving Gwen and I to run wild! After painting our nails pink and making pancakes we headed to Gwen's FIST movie: "Yogi Bear".

I was not blown away, but for a kids flick it was good. Gwen had to use the toilet 2x and couldn't stop moving. Luckily there was not anyone in front or beside us!

We just rang dad and Grif - Gwen was SO happy to talk to them, ranting on that "Yogi Bear" was so awesome! lol I am glad she thinks so!

Dog-owner for the weekend

2011-01-21T07:16:00.000+13:00

Our friends went away for the weekend so Grif is the proud "owner" of Narnia. He is still very tentative of her, but has growing confidence. So proud, Griffyn!

Water, water, water...and other things

2011-01-17T14:41:00.000+13:00

We headed to Hawkes Bay for the weekend because Papa Kaps had promised the kids a trip to Splash Planet. They left 10am-ish on Sunday leaving Rouru and I to wander around aimlessly and childfree for the day. It was odd. Upon their return, the kids continued their water fun in the makeshift "pool" Papa had made out of two bathtubs. They couldn't get enough water!!!

Monday morning we had to clean up, pack up and head home...but not before some creative posing!

Ah...*sigh*...the kids with their papa Kaps. And fun was had by all!

Good times with cousins

2011-01-06T15:38:00.002+13:00

gross

2011-01-04T11:51:00.000+13:00

While picking our strawberry (not the singular use of the word) I noticed a foul odor. Upon my searching I discovered a hedgehog had found its final resting place in our drain.

Yuck.

33 is the new 23!!!

2011-01-04T09:51:00.001+13:00

We spent the 28th of Dec to the 3rd of Jan at Foxton Beach with Derrylea and Pam Hardy. What an awesome way to spend the New Year! Our first day we sussed out the sand and sun:)

Then I noticed this sign...should I be worried?

At the holiday camp, the kids were taken on a tractor ride every day. I had to see how safe (and fun) it was so took the first ride...then hopped off. It was A-ok!

This is Nana Pam...I could not find any pics of Derrylea. They were both amazing and helped make this time the most memorable ever:) Awesome food, laughter and memories!

Oh...and I turned 33!

Feliz Navidad (and new digs for the kids)

2010-12-25T09:11:00.001+13:00

They do not get their fashion flair and posing prowess from me:)

Cheer at 95 Walkers Road

2010-12-24T15:43:00.000+13:00

How do you stay occupied from 630am in a house with two kids, two adults and presents?

- Watch "Unaccompanied Minors"
- Paint $5 special (paints included...not lessons)

- Bake Christmas Cookies

- Watch YouTube Christmas songs (some are too ancient for the kids LOL)

Now it is 3:41pm...any other ideas?

Christmas PHASE ONE

2010-12-23T14:22:00.000+13:00

The holidays are awesome:) We travelled to Hakes Bay on Sabbath to spend most of the week with Rouru's parents. Just a reminder that we are in the Southern Hemisphere so it is HOT AZ right now. Here the kids enjoy the pool in the Concrete Jungle at 66 Lipsombe Cres.

On Wed we went to the Aquarium and it ROCKED! I really enjoyed hanging with my three kids and hubby:)

After playing in the surf, a warm house and Gwen getting a bee sting on the bottom of her foot...they all relaxed in a nice bath LOL here is Chux in his!

Dear Lindsay,

2010-12-13T14:17:00.001+13:00

I will truly miss you. You have been a friend from within moments of our first encounter. You have taken me many places which I and my family have enjoyed tremendously–your company!

As you embark on this new adventure–your PhD–I wish you all the best. You are only moving less than two hours away but I know our lives will get busy with the mundane, routine, stuff that we always get busy with. What makes me sad is that I will not see your lovely face when I come to the staff room, or your cheeky e-mails regarding some event or idea.

I have been blessed by your willingness to accept me in your life, crazy husband and kids, oh and my quirkiness as well :-) I feel tremendously blessed these days to gain a new friend–a real heart-to-heart friend–as you know it does not always come easily… but you were addition to my life has only made my life better.

Cafe Cuba in Wellington...Linds' birthday and girls weekend away:)

Gwen and Emma's first snow trip. Lindsay was right there with us!

I know this is not a very flattering picture of me, but it's one I found of the both of us so deal with it :-)

Amelia Erhardt and some rodeo lady from Australia HAHAHAHA

love you lots Lindsay

xxooxxooxxooxxooxxoox .....

Fun school day

2010-12-11T18:40:00.002+13:00

for Griffyn. Friday was "Teacher Appreciation Day" which he had been looking forward to greatly:) Flowers for his Mrs Sharp and Annette, games in the afternoon, a "lunch" and a concert.

Grif wanted to do all the games with Shawn (below). Funny thin is that I taught this boys big brother a few years back!

Notice the big kid on the left LOL